tryign to rewrite lore for my persona/empress katress,, but then i realized idk what im doing ((as in uhh the surround world that im writing abt/aka Etao and the world its on and other civili---IDK)

ouhh daejigtkam

god my ex is so awful :(

chickenpants93 may have missed the dancing but not the party :)



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i have a discord server now :3 (totally forgor to post 💀and yes ik it's a stupid name)
https://discord.gg/YCZUS8CT

IDK WHY BUT I FEEL SO HAPPY SINCE YESTERDAY EEEEE

LIKE I JUST FEEL SO HYPER AND GOOD ATM
LIKE YEAH I HAVE HAD UPS AND DOWNS THROUGH OUT THE DAY BUT THE UPS HAVE BEEN MORE THEN THE DOWNS WHICH HASNT HAPPENED FOR LIKE MONTHS OR EVEN MORE

ITS LIKE MY BRAIN IS JUST MAKING UP FOR HOW LOW IVE BEEN FEELING FOR SO LONG AND MAKING ME SO HAPPY FOR TODAY AND YESTERDAY AND I HOPE IT LASTS FOREVER I DONT WANT IT TO GO AGAIN CUS IM SCARED I WONT GET IT BACK FOR A WHILE AGAIN 😭😭

part 2 of trying to write this


idk why but this made me so happy yesterday
yesterday there was a book swap happening
cus I’m a library ambassador peep I had to help during form along with others

it was in the canteen and my lesson straight after form was dance
and bc my condiotion I can’t do dance

then my dance teacher came rlly early for the first time omg

and me and my history teacher (she was organising the book swap) were helping her find a book for her 6 year old daughter

but my suggestions were pretty bad lol

and then my history teacher asked if she could borrow me to get more books and my dance teacher said yes

so we were walking and talking in the staff corridor which I’ve been in a few times (not for essentially great reasons the first ever time cus I nearly passed out others cus measurements by school nurse cus was on cp plan then)

then she took me to the staff room which I’ve never been in before

and there were 2 male teachers in there

and she told them to make sure they behave themselves bc there’s a student there now (me) BWHAHAHA
icl I was tryna not to laugh sm bc it felt so wrong being in the staff room lol

it act looked so nice too

then she took me to a shelf with books to add to the book swap cus the teachers don’t read them and stuff

and we were talking for a bit abt books and it felt like it lasted 4eva even tho it was prob under 5 mins BUT IN A GOOD WAY

She asked me if I’ve read any like adult books or smth like that I can’t remember

and I told her abt how I read this book for a gothic project we had to do and how it had stuff I didn’t expect which I will not say here
and how i read an autobiography bc I didn’t realise it was an autobiography and it had such an innocent name and such a traumatising story imo when I read it (maya angelou, I know why the caged bird sings - if y’all read it u may not find it traumatising but I was 12 and it mentioned stuff I did not rlly know abt at that time in detail ;-;)

and she told me when she was my age her parents were v strict abt what she watched
but not abt what she read

and one time her mum found a book what she was reading and was v shocked (been hoping this never happens to me for a while now lol)

and yeah

and then I saw teachers have lockers to :O
and she pointed out which one was hers (21(don’t ask why I told y’all lol)

and then we went back and organised the books out
and then she left
and then I sat down on a chair and did nothing and was by myself for the whole lesson cus I can’t do dance bc my condition
and no one wanted help choreographing their performance 😔

BUT IDK THAT INTERACTION W MY HISTORY TEACHER MADE ME SO HAPPY
LIKE MY DAY JUST FELT SO GOOD FROM THERE 😭😭

AM I WEIRD OR SMTH?

edit: it took me 10 mins to write this o.o
and the first time I wrote it I wrote even more then this and it all got refreshed and gone help 😭

i love this oml
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/KefsL4C_gps

Me writing several paragraph essay on why I was so happy yesterday and pmc casually refreshes the page..
WHYYYY 😭😭

just a heads up, i'll be gone June 3rd - June 8th. goin' on a family vacay :]

name change folks, don't say anything :] (i personally didn't like filesaes SOBBING)

real

Icl but their songs GO SO WELL TOGETHER AAA